HuHH???

Tuesday, February 6, 2007
5.47pm

Yeh.. Today, I’m back at home; my beloved hostel. I really need to focus on my research. I hope and pray for the postgraduate scheme that I had applied. I really need it for my master. Just now, I had sent my resume for the R.A or G.R.A application in the Gerontology Institute. I hope too that I can get it. I am a bit worry about that matter. The second thing that really matter me is my research method class. I really feel a bit nervous when it comes to the day of the class. You really wonder why, maybe. It is because of Prof Turiman, the lecturer in charge of that class. He likes to ask the students and me myself is a so called nervous person when it comes to questions waiting for an intellectual answer. The thing that I really wish now is to get a good grade in this semester and also a financial support for my study. I feel sleepy right now. I’ve got to go.

I wanna be me,

(Asma’)

Getting Back to Work

Saturday, February 3, 2007
8.37pm

Last night, I had managed to read about 3 articles. It’s superb even though it’s only three articles. At least I read. I thought I want to continue reading this morning but I had some events today. My old friend, Diyana (coursemate plus KBM’s member in UPM) had drop by to my house. She had to attend for PTD examination in SK JLN 3, which happens to be very near to my house. I had offered her lunch. Surprisingly, Wani too came along (my course mate plus my KBM’s member too) to my house for lunch. We had a small chat about our life. I also had gone for the ‘religion lecture’ (oh God, what’s the term used to call ceramah?). The lecture was nicely delivered by Ustaz Mahathir. It was all abut Maal Hijrah. One of his concerns is that, people nowadays are more particular about Amar Ma’ruf but less emphasize on the Nahi Munkar. We must have this two to be balance. The concept must be equally applied, not just by choosing one of it. Furthermore, he said that even though our Prophet, Nabi Muhammad SAW couldn’t read what is written down but he can read what is not written. As you can see, before Nabi Muhammad came to be the Nabi, he had isolated himself from the Quraisysh villagers. Every morning, he went alone to the Jablun Hira’. He purposely did that because he was confused and thinking about the people around him. Why there’s a lot of corruption, and many bad things happened? There must be something wrong but he didn’t know what it was. Yup, it really made me think a lot. So, it can be used to compare in our world today. Why all this bad things become to conquer the world silently? Is it because the nation leaders? The lacking of Islam value in the new generation? I don’t know. I’ve got to go now. My mom is beside me and I have to stop.

I wanna be me,

(Asma’)

todAy

Wednesday, January 31, 2007
1.54pm

Well, I’m very glad and praise my syukur to Allah the Almighty because I can still breathe the air. Alhamdulillah. I just came back from my master room in the 7th floor. As for master and PhD students, we are provided our own table equipped with internet connection. That’s make our research more easy. I had some small talk with E’in (my master colleague) this morning. She had told me something interesting on the comparison of between Islam with other religions, which she had attended the forum last weekends. It was delivered by brother Lim (had converted to Islam the last 10 years). We had discussed on how to answer back questions from the Christian especially from the missionaries. The major conclusion from the talk is to gain more and more knowledge in all disciplinary. Now I’m getting ready to go to my Statistical for Social Science class by Associate Professor Dr Bahaman. The class will be at 3 o’clock in the evening. It is quite an interesting class where I learn back my stats during my undergraduate. I better get going because I have to have a ‘compulsory’ bath first. Is it called the compulsory bath? I really do not know the exact terms used for it. And not to forget, I have planned to do some research on my problem statement and my objectives and also the instrument that can be used to evaluate the subject. What a thrill! I hope that I can publish at least 1 article during my master. I will do so as Dr Vijay Kumar (lecturer from the Bahasa and Modern Faculty) advised to. Besides that, I have to ask Pn Nawal for the endorsement of my supervisory committee. I hope all of it can be settle by this Friday. I have to stop now.

I wanna be me,

(Asma’)

Back again

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
10.21pm

I’m going to open a new book again in my life. All my effort in jotting down my daily life journal had truly gone after that damn little bad virus attacked my notebook. All of a sudden, my notebook started to *blink-blink and getting very slow indeed and lastly, it went comma. After the comp-medical treatment, all my valuable stored items in the note book had vanished including my lovely pictures during my convocation and also my e-life journal of myself. I feel very terrible on that incident. After that case, I had learned an important lesson; always back up your files Asma’. No one will know what will be happen in the future. Right? Yes, ma’am. So, where am I going to start? Oh, yes. I’m now during my master science in nutrition. I just registered my master in the early of this January after making a quite hard decision. Finally, I selected UPM instead of UKM after making consideration of the pro’s and cons of it. Well, here I am. Absolutely, I’m in the UPM again. Maybe it is fated by Allah that I will be in UPM. Hopefully, that I may graduated successfully for my master and pursue my PhD. I’m waiting for the post graduate scheme, which will be announced the list of achievers by this middle of February. I hope that I could make it. I really need the scholarship in pursuing my studies because my supervisor, Puan Nawalyah does not any grant yet. In the meantime, I had applied for the JPA scholarship. So, I’m in the waiting status. Just be patient and hope for the best. But, I cannot run away from a bit jealousy with those who got to be GRA or RA under any supervisor (that has huge amounts of grants or science fund). Furthermore, they also had applied for the post graduate scheme too. That’s not fair. But I cannot do anything and just have to wait for the results. I pray for success and all my friends too. Not to forget, I had just attend welcoming reception and oath taking ceremony today, which was held at the Great Hall, Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah Art and Culture Centre. It purposely held to welcome the new graduate students (referring to myself too) second semester, 2006/2007.I’m now in my beloved room in the 17th college. It’s wonderful because I have my own privacy bedroom, which I do not need to share with someone else. I love it. I am supposed to accomplish my huge bundles of assignments but I do not have the mood to do so. Isn’t that lazy? Very bad attitude of mine. Study according to mood. But I will change it soon after I get through the research process, which will be starting by next week. I’m just jotting all my daily activity because I do not what to do right now. I am not used yet with my bedroom. It’s normal for me to feel hardly to sleep in a new place on the 1st night. For the solution, I kept myself sleepy by typing all this stuff. I just remembered my past days in Prima Agri’s. It was first experience in working. Prima’s had taught me a lot on the definition of working. I make new friends, I learned to be more self independent, making critical decision, learn to handle with person, and learn to manage people, learn about quality control, learn about auditing and learn to care about others. My boss, Cik Wan Norhayati was such a nice, caring, matured and confident person. I do love her work desire and her workable, generating ideas throughout the work life. Miss all of them especially from the Quality Assurance (QA department staff). I think I stop here first because I feel a bit sleepy.

I wanna be me,

(Asma’)